Giving yourself grace

I have a confession to make: despite having kept up with my commitment publishing to my blog every day for what’s now three days in a row, I am only human. While I was drafting my post about human curation, I was truly and utterly exhausted from the culmination of a busy work day and a severe case of revenge bedtime procrastination. I was trying to drum up my thoughts while also calling into a late-night push-to-production meeting with about 100 of my closest co-workers, just in case something needed a last-minute bug fix.

Between the fact-checking and fits of micro-sleeping, I had already lost my progress, twice, to sleepily drifting fingers accidentally closing or refreshing the browser window I was editing the post in. That sure well teaches me to not write drafts in an online editor. For the curious and opinionated, Obsidian is my go-to tool as I’m writing this.

After losing my introduction a second time, I had to laugh at myself and find some folks to laugh with me. Sharing my experience on my Discord server of choice netted me what was an appropriate response.

Fair enough, but I was really excited to expand on the intersection between curated subject matter websites, the need for human connection, and a lack of community and conversation for web developers ever since Twitter changed. This was going to be a truly insightful post! I had to get it down and published for the masses to read so I could change the minds of powerful people at a fundamental level!

Then I looked at the clock. It was 1:00 am. I had to get up the next morning to get the kids’ school lunches ready and hop on a networking call. As they say, time is undefeated.

So, I’ll be giving myself some grace, especially when I want to write but rest is required. That post about community and conversation is still forthcoming, but it will have to wait for a more rested version of myself to write it. At the very least, a tomorrow version. Right now, I’m going to bed.